从与人合住的第一天起就开始后悔这个决定。是独生女的劣根性吧，眼里容不下别人。

　　尽管不断地提醒自己要借这个机会学着容忍、学着善解人意，但是似乎总会有问题和冷战的时候。究竟是文化差异？还是性格差异？还是年龄差异？可能是从合住的第一天起定位不清楚，天真地以为朋友的好意是理所当然的，天真地以为住在一个屋檐下就是家人了；天真地以为别人的计划就是自己的计划，等到发现不是这么回事的时候想要“撤退”反而弄得比不接近更加疏远。

　　看来中国的古语“君子之交淡如水”实在是经过历史考验的，否则也不会流传长久了。

　　同学转发了一封邮件是关于柏拉图与老师苏格拉底关于“爱情”与“婚姻”的对话，简而言之就是谁是你生命旅程中最硕果累累的麦穗，谁又是最大最好的圣诞树？当选择只有一次的时候，很多人似乎就无从下手了。

　　九月一过，我就三十了。看看周围的人或者结婚生子，或者结婚离婚，或者单身但是事业有成，而我呢？似乎还停留在迷迷糊糊的高中生时代，整天还是在“爱我的人我不爱，我爱的人爱我不够”的漩涡中。真是越挣扎，越迷惑。有时想想：真的是自己太理想主义，还是应该放弃自己一直相信的“真爱在天边，只要努力找，总会有找到的一天？”落得最终走过麦穗地，错过了最硕果累累的麦穗。但是真的要为了不错过，而搬回家一棵并不是最大最好的圣诞树吗？

　　爱人如此地不确定、如此的挑剔，我又何尝不是呢？正如他所说的：“如果我们都为了结婚，那么明天我们都可以各自结婚。”是呀，并不是没有人不想嫁他，也不是没有人不想娶我，但是我们愿意吗？我们确信吗？是不是因为我们都太理想主义？还是因为我们太苛刻自己，只给自己一次选择的机会，所以不容许自己做出错误的选择？

　　但是不做出选择，又怎么知道选择是正确还是错误呢？可能人生更多的是选择了以后，如何好好地经营这个选择吧。

　　就好像人生只有一次，既然只有一次，就应该活得好好的。

说话总是很大声的Lorelle在完成她的“工作场所安全与健康”课程的时候，把我们办公室里最脏乱差的Jon的桌子周围拍成照片，作为反面教材。当Jon休假回来，Lorelle不知从哪里找出来了一块标志“Think Tidy"，然后对Jon说：要把这块标志挂在正对着Jon的墙上。Jon毫不客气地反击道：如果你给我这块牌子，我也在你桌子前挂一块：“噓...大家都在工作”的牌子。Lorelle立刻哑口无言了。

昨天胃痛逃班在家上网遇到高中时的同学正好也是装病在家，于是一起上skype聊天。男人三十而立，已经在日本东京工作两年、结婚成家；看看我自己还是一个人东游西荡的。同学说：“听你说话的样子，怎么和高中时比起来没什么长进呀？”这句话真是一针见血呀！难怪至今想嫁的人不想娶，想娶的人不想嫁。恐怕是在别人眼里自己不会是一个有责任心的好太太、好妈妈吧？

 

是我生活得太理想主义？还是从来就不知道自己到底想要什么？

1. David walked into the office one day.  Jo said to him, 'David, you didn't iron your T-shirt.'  One second later, David replied, 'I ironed it a month ago.' haha...

 

2. Morning tea break time, I said, 'I'm going to mow the lawn today after work cause the grass is nearly reaching my knees.'  The CEO said, 'aha...you better, otherwise I will send you a letter of warning.'  (Knocking my head on the wall) I said, 'Oh no, then I will have to type it out myself.'

 

3. Kerri stopped at my desk, asking, 'What do you call a deer without eyes?'  'Blind deer?' I answered. :] 'No eye deer (No idea)'  Haha...

 

 

 

 

 

My housemate and friend Kay is in Darwin with Cath (her foster mother) to attend Cath's neice Alisa's wedding.  Cath left the shop to Kay's sister Evelyn to look after and two baby turkeys with me.  Kay left me a two-page note about how to feed them, how to keep them warm at night, when to leave them for a bit sunshine and activity.  I didn't realize turkey sitting could be such a big task.

 

I remember when the mother turkey hatched the four eggs, every one thought she accidentally hatched the hen's babies as baby turkeys look almost no different from baby chickens.  After a couple of months, the baby chickens turned out to be baby turkeys.  However, two of them didn't make through the chilly winter days.  Now one of these two cannot walk properly and has been struggling, which is very sad to see.  Cath said, "We cannot kill it just because it cannot walk." I guess that's the Aussie's humane.

 

Friday morning, I got up early, boiled an egg, cut it finely and mix with finely-cut lettuce, add some bird seeds, that's the turkey's breakfast.  While I was at work, the healthy one jumped out of the esky and walked around the house, leaving poo everywhere.  By the time I came back for lunch, I had to feed them, take them out for some sun and clean the shit.  I felt that I am so not a pet person, cause I resented it.

 

Every evening, I can hear the sick one struggling in the esky, which disturbed my sleep and I was always worried that the healthy one might jump out, walk around and leave shit everywhere.  That was how I spent the last few days.  I was really glad that I only had gold fish as pet before in Shanghai and apart from feeding them when I feel like to, dad took the changing water part every day.

 

On Sunday morning, after talking to mom and dad on the Internet, it was time to take both of them out for a bit sunshine and found out the sick little one died... Sadness filled my heart and eyes.  I know I am not a pet person, cause you have to accept the good as well as the bad.

 

The healthy one tried his first flight in the chook cage in the garden.  I had to check on him every ten minutes, just make sure it won't fly away.  I cannot give back to Cath none while she left two with me.  I had to take it back to the ground from the top edge of the chook cage.  Because the cage was built under the water tank, every time I bumped my head on the wooden frame.  Once the big bang even broke my hair band. ai... I gave up...

 

I hope the only survivor will keep growing to the turkey adulthood.